it's a problem when relationships become a problem

in the word of one of my favorite shows, "relationships are hard." i want to watch my felicities again. the O.C. isn't of quite the same caliber!

following your instincts, not always a good idea

Something told me to go get a CD after work today...
Sometimes you shouldn't listen when you have a feeling.
You shouldn't follow every instinct you have. It can lead to bad things.
Things like finding a 20-song CD in the free promotional pile from the guy you were sleeping with last year.
Listening to it has sort of put me off eating. For the rest of the week. SIGH. This was the guy with the banjo who came four times. "Four times the pleasure, 1/4th the pain." He wasn't worth it.
His music's not half bad, or at least, the guitar is solid. The creepy effects and his backup I could do without. And the lyrics about abortions and the girl he slept with after me, who "stole his heart and his money and his car," etc. Mr. I-can't-be-in-a-relationship-right-now who turns around and gets with a klepto.
Yeah, happy fucking Wednesday.

the "i will judge you based on your answers" hipster screening test

This is an actual survey I sent, and got a reply back from, a guy I met at a bar. Not a good sign when he can't spell disease correctly. Also, when I told him I was couchsurfing a lot he made a pass at me and not so subtly said I should surf in his BED. Hmm. Next.

5 of your current favorite bands:
Bon Iver, Old Crow Medicine Show, The National, Ra Ra Riot, Aimee Mann

5 songs you could use as background for the soundtrack to your life (say, if you were a reality TV star):
Methanphetime (OCMS), Everybody Hurts (REM), Hurt (NIN), anything by Elliot Smith, SexyBack (JT)

3 best pickup lines:
"Would you like some free chapstick?" "Would you date a guy that works at red lobster?" "hi, (sigh)"

number of girls picked up in bars in the last week:
does my friend's mother count?

favorite things about NYC:
the low low prices, I can buy grocries at 4am, and Moby lives here

real reason you want to attend Mass:
i long for a sense of tradition and comunity, or i have a nun fetish... i can't decide

where do you see yourself in 3 years?
in three years i hope to be debt and desease free

weird fan mail

I just got this email from a guy (?) that said: "I suck a lot in bed..."
WTF? That's what I get for checking my email at 2am I suppose.

In other news, this semi-hot guy on the train was all, "It's not everyday I get to sit by a pretty girl," meaning me, I suppose. It was a nice thing to hear. Too bad he smelled like cigarettes.

the more things change...

So when I said, "Let's play Scrabble," I didn't mean "Try to have sex with me"!! Although it is nice to know that he's the same after all that. Lindsay was right, as usual. And also I was right, but that doesn't make it less weird.

I'm missing various things, though, and have no idea how I'm going to get them back from where they're being held hostage. I feel like Al did when Erin broke up with him.

In other news, friends are nice to have. Very nice.

things fall into place when you least expect

just when i thought everything was back to 4 years ago (falling apart), and i was feeling awful (and falling apart), i remembered how i felt last november: like this was my year. like it was all coming together.

when i got josh's email today, i felt again that it was all coming together. i felt again like This is My Year! and i bopped around to a little dance inside my head. i felt hopeful. these things rarely happen.

so it was a big deal!
i can't wait to have my cousin in my life, in a big way, this summer. it's gonna be awesome.
i was always envious of the closeness my roommate had with HER cousin. and now mine will be here. i can drag him to quiz night. i can annoy him by having my boyfriend camping out at my flat.
it's gonna be a great summer :D
i can tell.

free association and freudian psychoanalysis

Maybe some things you never live down. Like that one time I ran smack into the phone mounted on the wall while I was staring at W and trying to discreetly get to my seat in homeroom in 7th grade... But the cutest "oops" moment story I heard this week was when A was telling me that he was playing a game once, and something free associated "boobs," from which he free associated, "mom," and made everyone laugh.

I'm sure the whole experience of being a social outcast has made him a better, nicer, stronger individual.

Isn't it funny that all the kids who were picked on in school end up being the more empathetic ones?

In other news, I read somewhere this week that if you want a sensitive man who will attend to you, go for someone with full lips. Someone with a small upper lip and fatter lower lip, however, is unstable and liable to cheat. (My dad has awfully thin lips, in fact....)